donderdag 19 februari 2015

de donkere hoed

a photoseries shot by Maaike de Jager from Uilskuiken
we had such good luck with the light that day!
these actually remind me of my old pictures, don't you think?

tonight i'm going to have dinner at ruud and kelsey, my old roommates.
i miss them sometimes, so it's lovely to be able to just visit for an evening
and even more good news, my best lovely friend Jolein is going to live here in Deventer as well!
this way we will see eachother much more often, and i can't wait.
i realise so often how much i need other people, 
and how much contact and communication means to me.
never underestimate those things

zondag 15 februari 2015

I can feel spring and it makes my heart sing

this week had a day on which i felt spring for the first time this year
even though there was a cold winter breeze, the sun broke through and was warm enough
to even walk around without a coat!
there's little flowers blooming in the park where ronja and i walk everyday
the swans in the lake have returned and are swimming proudly with their great white feathers
ronja and i spend a few hours with laila on her roof
sitting in the sun, sipping wine and watching ronja play with anything she could find
i took these pictures that day.
i feel so lucky and happy ever since ronja melle and i moved into our new home
and it is most lovely to have laila as my neighbour
i feel safe here.

woensdag 28 januari 2015

home is where Melle and Ronja are




i was just talking to my aunt at the phone
and i told her about my new home and how much i love it
but then she suddenly asked; 'but what is your Home now? with your parents or in Deventer?'
and i just realised that they're both my home
but in the end, i could call anything home as long as i have melle and ronja with me.

so as i promised, some more pictures from my first week in our new home
unfortunaly i don't have anything in better quality (except some more like the first picture, which Niek Doup took, i'll show you more from that later!) because i still dont own a camera. i'll try to borrow Ruud's.
we've had a lot of visitors! which is lovely. i almost haven't felt lonely yet, but when i do
i just run up the stairs with ronja in my arms to the appartment above me, where Laila lives, 
and then we drink tea or wine, listen to music and talk while ronja steals laila's socks and plays with them.
and every evening when i lay in bed and i look through my place
i can't help but feeling bliss, grateful and so happy that it makes me emotional.
oh gosh here i go again hahah

vrijdag 9 januari 2015

New Years' Eve || ONESIEPARTY!


i developed the pictures from our new years' eve!
and if i may say so, i think they turned out wonderfully hahah
especially because they're made with a disposable camera
it was so great to see how many people had come in a onesie
at some point we saw our neigbours across the street laughing
 at the sight of all these people in their fluffy outfits.
one big pyama party, and it was just lovely
best new years eve i've had in ages (:

as some of you might have already seen on my Instagram,
i have a great surprise;
i have found a new home, in the centrum of the city!
and oh gosh, it really is one of a kind, so beautiful!
i was looking for a new place to live for some months now
as i am living in a two-household-house, with four people and two animals
it was just getting overcrowded, especially since kelsey (ruuds' girlfriend) 
has moved in as well.
and it was time for me and my two monsters melle and ronja to move on
at first i was scared of having to live alone again
but after all, i am not alone, i have my fluffy family (:
and it will be much better for ronja, who doesn't really feel at home at ruuds'.
so oof, a new year, a new home!
i will be writing about, and posting pictures of my new place soon!
if you have any questions, feel free to ask underneath
and i'll try to answer as many of them in my next post!

vrijdag 26 december 2014

a different christmas





hahah, these are our christmas-family-portrait attempts
ever since i live here, ruud rein and kelsey have been making jokes 
about having melle for christmas. 
just to explain the first picture haha
reins' sister, maaike, who has this awesome blog i have been reading for years
(curious? click!)
came over to take them. and you have to be patiently, as you see hah.

tomorrow i am going to see my family for a christmas diner at my aunt,
everyone will be there!
it's been too long since i have seen them, so i am excited to go.
after that i will travel back home alone, and ronja will stay with my parents
as they are always leaving for a holiday on Ameland, one of my beloved islands,
to avoid the fireworks. and with that, wobbe getting so upset she doesn't eat anymore.
and let's be honest, they don't like the fireworks either hahah.
wouldn't it be incredible if everyone would just light a lantern into the air, as they do in Rapunzel?
anyway, this year i am staying here, with my weird but ever so lovely roommates.
and i decided it would be much more fun for ronja if she went along with my parents.
we were there last year, and she loved it. ah she was just a 3 month old pup back then!
this year has gone fast. and at the same time, my life a year ago seems like another life.
one i have outgrown.

i will celebrate a '3th christmas' day (which ruud made up hahah) 
with pretty much all the people i have met here in the past year
and i can't help being sentimental about it
because i am so thankful for where i am now
and for the people i am with, where i am.

merry christmas

vrijdag 12 december 2014

merry christmas


one of the most interesting things about a dog is
that it reflects the behaviour of its owner
so however your dog is behaving, it is because you are, too!
for example, ronja got very insecure, because i am.
i called in the help of a lady, like 'the dog whisperer'?
i dont know what it's called in english hahah.
anyway, you get the gesture.
it's been very helpfull, and we are improving (:

oh the december month is a very busy one
normally i just get sick, but the injections i have been taking to improve my immune system
are really doing their job, now i'm just sniffly!
for this new year's eve we (rein, ruud, kelsey and me) have planned a onsie-party!
what is better than spending your new year's eve with friends,
in a pyama, drinking wine and watching fireworks?
i think we will end up either with the four of us, or with a lot of people,
i'm looking forward to it!

then this, because i want to share it so badly.
i might have told you sometime before already that my dad is a story-teller?
it's one of my favourite things about him, 
even though i can't always tell wether it's a made up story or not ahhah.
but from this thing i am sure it is a true story;
while we were in the car 
(which is where i actually 'met' my father, but that is a story for some other time)
he played this song for me;
click it, then read on while listening to it.
"she was a jew, living in paris
and so a target for the nazi's in the second world war.
after the war, she traveled to a place in Germany,
the land she only had bad associations with, Göttingen.
and being there she came to love these people
she wrote this song, against the war, the scars it had left between countries"

hah, maybe you are thinking;
"what a silly girl, and what a silly talk"
but this is something that touches me, inspires me.
it makes me wonder and happy.
so i cant resist also posting the translation of the lyrics;

Of course, it's not la Seine
It's not Vincennes' wood,
But it is pretty anyway
In Göttingen, in Göttingen.
No quays, and no old tunes
moaning and dragging on
But love still blossoms here
In Göttingen, in Göttingen.
They know better that us, I think,
The history of the kings of France
Herman, Peter, Helga and Hans,
In Göttingen.
Don't get offended,
But the tales of our childhood,
"Once upon a time" start
In Göttingen.
Of course, we have la Seine
And our Vincennes' wood,
But God, the roses are beautiful
In Göttingen, in Göttingen.
We have our pale mornings,
The grey soul of Verlaine,
Them, they are melancholy itself
In Göttingen, in Göttingen.
When they don't have anything to say,
They stay here and smile to us
But we understand them anyway
The blond children of Göttingen.
Too bad for those who are stunned
May the others forgive me,
But children are the same,
In Paris or in Göttingen.
May never come back
The time of blood and hatred
Because there are people I love
In Göttingen, in Göttingen.
When would ring the alarm
If we had to take up arms again
My heart would shed a tear
For Göttingen, for Göttingen.
But still, it is pretty
In Göttingen, in Göttingen

and merry christmas(:

woensdag 19 november 2014

we'll get through the day, this way

video
so this is what i do when i'm ill.
and honestly, what could be better than cuddles?

zaterdag 15 november 2014

autumn morning light

Photo's by Niek Doup

coat - stolen from a friend
scarf - gift from my mama
dress - choies
shoes - asianicandy
bag - my granny

you might have seen this one on lookbook already
but here you have some more photo's!
all taken on a beautiful autumn morning,
 by the talented young photographer Niek Doup that i've met here.

lately i finished my shots of medicine
and ever since i've been feeling so terrible
i can hardly do anything and have mainly been sleeping.
on the other- positive- hand, i did start reading books again (:
'Haar naam was Sarah' (i think translated that would be 'Her name was Sarah')
a very sad story about a journalist in france who is writing about the terrible things
that happened during the second world war, tracking one particular girl.
it's really worth reading

when we were young, my dad took us to a place in france
that had been touched by war, and held these memories
i remember reading 'scars begin to disappear, memories remain'
it made a huge impression on me.
but i didn't understand a thing about what had really happened there
the thousands of white crosses, marking the nameless graves of the jews
just looked like an impressive artwork to me.
i remember not understanding why my dad was so touched by this
and i hope that someday i will go there again with him
so we can share the moment, now that i am starting to understand.